Where Am I ?

being in medical school isn't the easiest thing in this world.
you enter in as a winner and i mean not just a normal next-door winner, but like a Caeser entering rome! (why do i exaggerate so much)!

as you become acquainted with the surroundings and people around you, you realise that you are so extraordinarily ordinary that it is almost depressing.
but each day as you are scolded and loathed and paraded by the residents, consultants, seniors (really frustoo ones), you realise (in one glorious epiphanous moment) that none of these people were in a better position when they were in your shoes!
infact most of the times it is you who are better off.
the key to survival here is to never ever take any confidence busting remark seriously (well that applies to life in general) coz there are so many of them that taking them seriously will be nothing but futile.
medical education is all about developing instincts and instincts are not built in one reading, or one exam, or one failure, or one success. it is a continuous process for which all you need to do is keep your eyes and ears open.

i think a key factor which makes the life of a medical student tough is the evaluation system.
i have faced the first two professional exams and what i've realised is that the questions asked are so far away from actually what happens in practical life that students become disillusioned.

ask any medical student to zoom out from his life for a moment and ask himself "why am i doing this ?" and there will be no concrete answer. infact 'why' happens to be the most unanswered question in medical school. most of the times we are taught outdated stuff or worse, irrelevant things. sure as doctors we are supposed to know everything about health and disease. but with limited time, shouldn't stress be laid on checking whether the student is clear in his concepts rather than cramming useless facts which we will eventually forget shortly after the exams?

the question paper is nothing but a list of few topics about which we have to write everything that we know. and to make things worse, priority is given to 'presentaion' or rather how pretty my answer book looks.
its not surprising that people are able to clear these exams by studying for them for as short as a week (with zero background study).

i've seen so many morons score perfectly and so many bright ones poorly that, i've realised that one cannot judge oneself (as a doctor) based on exam results.

well then how am i supposed to measure my progress as a doctor?
well thats what i've been looking for

maybe you can tell me..........................

THE ROOMMATE

! THE ROOMMATE !

room·mate
–noun
a person who is assigned to share or shares a room or apartment with another or others

Well b4 u start falling for ne prejudices,let me clear up that putting on this post doesnt mean dat ive had ne fight with my roomies or they are plain a**holes or nething of dat sort.

its just dat ive got this weird disease which u call 'foot in brain disease' which translates into me being into a continuous state of analysing my surroundings and drawin out (often weird) conclusions from them.

ok so wat ive observed and learnt from about an year of roommateship with my roomie(s)
is dat the roommate is a strange creature.
maybe it just highlights and reiterates the relevance of the age old maxim ofwisdom of 'familiarity brings contempt'.
the more u get to know a person,the more closely u get to see them,the more flaws u can see in them.

no i dont mean to say dat ive been living with evil devils of the dark lord or sumthing like dat, but maybe its just the way it goes.............
Maybe dats wat happens with lovers getting to live together(stupid comparison na)

u choose sum1 as a roommate coz u 'think' dat u enjoy their company,isint it?
but after sumtime,dunno wat happens (maybe the real him in him shows up or u get simply bored of dat person) but things dont 'click' as they did before.
and i think dat all people sharing rooms with sum1 else are shaking their heads violently........

hold on to your heads and read on,

wat i want to say dat roommates are percieved to be potential best freinds, but dat potential usually turns out be a dissapointment.
allow me to make it clearer,
see,
u r spending most of time in the room with your roomate
=> roomies the person u r supposed to talk to the most
=>u cum to know a lot of things about him
=>chances of finding sumthing intresting in him maximum(coz the persons not exactly a dumbo!)
=> high chances of a friendship

but things dont turn out this way,(still finding a rationale behind it,ne suggestions welcomed)

and roomies dont turn out to be the best of freinds.
but still, they are nice people(i dont know wat i meant by dat!)

a roommate spills out such a mixed bag of emotions dat it leaves u dazed.
u hate him sumtimes,
find him so cute sumtimes,
crib about him to other people,
reject him as a complete useless person sumtimes
while respect(ya, u can actually hv such feelings for a roommate!) him othertimes.

well watever it is, i do find my life a lot more happening and lot less boring with my roomies around.

dis is the first time i am sharing rooms wid sum1 and it was so disheartening to know dat.

but now i feel dat i have actually started enjoying myself wit them.
u know, u get to learn so much from them
u learn to adjust so much(and dat is such an important survival skill!)

maybe u just get used to them and their ways(however strange they maybe)
and maybe that sense of familiarity gives you a sense of security(waznt dat rhyming!)
the more u think the more intresting u find it.

and there are so many advantages too,
like the cool deodorant hes got
or the luxury shampoo hes got
or the gr8 mobile hes got!
(man ive become so mean!)

well i think ive licked up ur brains enuf!
better save them for an afterthought over the psycology of the roommate!

ps: plz plz plz do leave ur comments
be it abuse or praise or just sum crap (like wat uve just read)
but do leave a comment............

signing out initiated
affirmative...............

finally!

What an year it has been!
and i thought dat first year at a medical school was supposed to be borin!
so much has happened..............
so many things have changed (most of it includes my attitude towards life)
and so much hasn't

every time i put my hands on da keyboard to put on the next blog,such a flurry of thoughts passses thru my mind dat i dont understand wat to say and wat not to say.
finally i find myselves writing sumthing on my blog after one long year.

The cbse pmt results will be out in a day or two................
i heard this and was caught by nostalgia!
just a year ago,i was like one of the many people who call me taking advice about nething and everything about this whole pmt thing.
things like wen did i sleep, wat did i eat,where did i eat,wen did i pee(dat a n obvious exaggeration!).
it feels good to find yourself safe and secure from the maddening preparations these exams require.
on the other hand,if i luk around me i find myself so much a part of the crowd(i.e so much like every1 else in the college) dat i feel i bit disheartened.
being a part of the crowd waz the last thing i ever wanted to do
and here i find myself being just an average student of the class :-(

well on a better note i think i have matured and started thinking a bit more logically and practically than i used to.
being in the hostel teaches you so many things!

i made many pals but only a few friends(and dats how i think its supposed to be)
learnt so much about girls(anatomy,physiology and psycology............ and still learning)

i learnt dat life is not about waitin the storm to pass
but tis about learning to dance in the rain!

there r so many things i did for the very first time in my life..............
(excuse me i dint smoke or boozed or had sex or nething of dat sort)

i learnt to smile and party even wen i failed in a test i studied so dearly for

but i did enjoy each and every part of it

i can go on and on about all this philosophy..................
but i gotta go
got a test tomorrow and profs a month ahead!

and keep lukin up for more of my tale from the first year of my journey to being a doctor..........................

waitin for college........

finally college days are about to come and im pretty excited about it !
being a hostler, im quite a bit apprehensive about the ragging scenario
there.please sum1 tell please me that i wont be stripped naked and made to run
in the corridors!reading five point someone dint help me much. moms ready with all the advices and tears.shes scaring me to death by telling me dat shes gonna cum to see me every month.
worse,she could even shift base to Delhi ! and i thought dat evil dead was
scary !my big b is telling about things like safe sex,condoms,importance
of self restraint and what not ! as if that is what im going for.man, we should
never underestimste our siblings !
meanwhile life is just fine and sooooooooooo lazy.im sleeping for not less
than 12 hours and boy, im lovin it.this is the only thing ill be regretting while
leaving for college.