Where Am I ?

being in medical school isn't the easiest thing in this world.
you enter in as a winner and i mean not just a normal next-door winner, but like a Caeser entering rome! (why do i exaggerate so much)!

as you become acquainted with the surroundings and people around you, you realise that you are so extraordinarily ordinary that it is almost depressing.
but each day as you are scolded and loathed and paraded by the residents, consultants, seniors (really frustoo ones), you realise (in one glorious epiphanous moment) that none of these people were in a better position when they were in your shoes!
infact most of the times it is you who are better off.
the key to survival here is to never ever take any confidence busting remark seriously (well that applies to life in general) coz there are so many of them that taking them seriously will be nothing but futile.
medical education is all about developing instincts and instincts are not built in one reading, or one exam, or one failure, or one success. it is a continuous process for which all you need to do is keep your eyes and ears open.

i think a key factor which makes the life of a medical student tough is the evaluation system.
i have faced the first two professional exams and what i've realised is that the questions asked are so far away from actually what happens in practical life that students become disillusioned.

ask any medical student to zoom out from his life for a moment and ask himself "why am i doing this ?" and there will be no concrete answer. infact 'why' happens to be the most unanswered question in medical school. most of the times we are taught outdated stuff or worse, irrelevant things. sure as doctors we are supposed to know everything about health and disease. but with limited time, shouldn't stress be laid on checking whether the student is clear in his concepts rather than cramming useless facts which we will eventually forget shortly after the exams?

the question paper is nothing but a list of few topics about which we have to write everything that we know. and to make things worse, priority is given to 'presentaion' or rather how pretty my answer book looks.
its not surprising that people are able to clear these exams by studying for them for as short as a week (with zero background study).

i've seen so many morons score perfectly and so many bright ones poorly that, i've realised that one cannot judge oneself (as a doctor) based on exam results.

well then how am i supposed to measure my progress as a doctor?
well thats what i've been looking for

maybe you can tell me..........................